Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with intense pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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